I’ve been writing and publishing my works since forever because there’s nothing I love more than setting my thoughts free, but there is something that always held me back, so I always chose the easiest option. I went from Facebook to Tumblr to Instagram and I’m not saying it’s easy to have your big break there, but I always felt like I was going nowhere, while the ‘real’ bloggers on their fancy platforms were going places. On the other hand, I’ve never felt like I belonged there because they were great, while I was just an average person pretending to be a writer on social media.
Creating a blog has always been in my mind, but I always pushed that idea in the back where I couldn’t reach it, because I felt like I didn’t deserve to be there (we’ll talk about me thinking I don’t deserve nice things in another post.)
Then, several episodes of “The Bold Type” later (hence the title of the blog) I felt this sudden urge to change my life and what best way to do that than starting a blog? I’m also very fickle so I don’t know if I’ll continue doing this, but while I’m typing this, I feel like this is what I’m meant to do, this is what brings me joy.
It might not seem much, because I’m not moving to the end of the world (you might not believe it, but that would be much easier than putting myself out there) or cutting off all relationships, but for a not so bold type like me, creating this little space is huge. Because people are being mean all the time and they are easily bored, so why even bother with me? What if I’m making this big effort and no one cares? What if it’s all for nothing?
What if it’s all for nothing? That’s what always stopped me from creating a blog, because it might seem stupid, but it doesn’t come easy to me. But it’s true that rewarding things never do. And perhaps, the fact that they are hard to get, it’s what makes them feel so good.
What I’m trying to say is, this is the beginning of my journey and it’s scary and exciting and I hope I’m helping someone understand that we gotta start somewhere. We gotta fight fear because we think that by giving in to it we’ll be happier but actually, fear only stops you from achieving great things and let me tell you, you deserve them.
And if I can beat it, so can you.